Headings and Happenings
01.11.2006 -17 °C
If you'd of told me how true the heading of my blog was even weeks ago I wouldnta believed you. Its come to embody what seems to be the theme of this trip, however I still am curious about the purpose. If the point of this trip was supposed to be a evaluative life-centering and self finding experience it certainly has failed miserably. If I felt lost before I set out the feeling now is indescribable. Its amazing how a track in life (even one that you've been in so deeply and for so long) can be bounced out of in a matter of minutes, a most minuscule amount of time relative to a life. Amazing how mere words delegate futures, the right combination changing lives forever. What this trip has done is illuminate to me the vast infinity of life tracks that I was previously unaware of. Attempt to look into the future and you'll see thousands upon thousands of paths all so interconnected and collective that one path is certainly unpredictable if even decernable. This is quite a realization for me as (like i said before) was unaware of even the existence of these options and detours but a week ago. The slightest bump might send you miles off your intended direction and perhaps the right combination of bumps and grooves will see you back to where you thought you were going, regardless each track ends in the same horizon and I am clinging to the hope that one particular path might not be better than another, that down each interconnected groove there are valuable experiences and important people and finally I am desperately hoping against hope that down one of these unknown ways I might find something to fill the hole in my heart as valuable as its previous occupant.
Interesting post Brock. Losing your way is an inevitable part of life. Others have lost theirs in unfathomable ways. Losing someone that is valuable to you (and yes, she is a totally cool person), especially while you are away, is difficult. But remember that wounds do heal. Sometimes the sufferer will now get an opportunity to evaluate what part they played in causing that "bump in the road" and get to do a much better job the next time. That piece of advice is from personal experience. And, TRUST ME...there will be a next time. You have the personality and charisma of a champ...so stay in the fight. Being out there traveling is a great opportunity that most people in the world never get to do (...and btw, I do envy you). It will be something you will always remember and feel proud that you did. And sometimes you don't realize what you learned until after the journey has ended.
Take care. Things will be fine.
02.11.2006 by kranston